Why is it so hard?

The music is blasting out the stereo, I am singing at the top of my lungs along to the latest Katy Perry album, I know all the words.

I am sitting in church we are having a really good discussion and I know there is a great verse I want to share but I can't quite remember it...

How come it seems so easy to get caught up in the world? Why do I spend more time listening to random pop songs then I do listening to God? I can rattle off the words to every song on the new Script album I got a few weeks ago but I can only recite a few verses from a bible I have been reading my whole life. There just seems to be something wrong here.

Do I devote more quality time to music then I do to God. I read my bible every morning but am I actually reading it? Am I soaking in the words of the bible like I soak in the lyrics of my favourite songs? I think back to my "quiet times" when I read my bible. Sure they may be quiet on the outside but my mind is racing constantly going off track, the songs I have been listening to playing in my head, listing off the assignments I have to do, considering what outfit I will wear to the party that night.

One of the few verses I know comes to my mind... Don not conform to the patterns of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. (Romans 12:2) Or as the message says don't become so well adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. I feel like that is what I have done. I have conformed to this world, adjusted as to it as if its a natural thing.

That's the reason why I find it easier to sing along to all the Katy Perry songs then I do the remember the words of the bible. I have travelled so far from the path that God had set for me, become a lost orphan of this world instead of a child of God. The reason I can't spend quality time with God or hear his voice is because I have forgotten how, I have surrounded myself witht the world and that is all I know now.

So now in order to hear him clearly I must disconnect from the world, alienate myself from this culture... stick out like a sore thumb. I will become a child of God, fill my life with his word and his plans for my life. I know it won't be that simple but hopefully I may come out of this realisation with a few more encouraging verses up my sleave and a thirst for the life that god can give me and not a desire for the empty promises of the world.

So that's my question for the week... considered if not answered. I wonder what yours are?